...everyday ... i get just a bit closer to wanting to become single. if i wanted to consantly feel uncomfortable in my relationship ... i could have stayed with you know who. i got out of that to not feel that way. to not feel like i have to constantly battle. i hate the fact that yet in still i got promises that things will get better and they haven't. do you know what constant crying does to your skin. ask me ... i know. i hate these god awful entries. but i need to get this off my chest. i need to talk to my best friend but her ass just signed off ... how much you wanna bet that this bitch has talked to her ... it's okay for her to ... take over MY best friend but when it happens the other way around i'll get a long ass email talking about how it's not fair to her for me to do that. well fuck her ... i'm tired of looking out for everyone else's feelings and getting mines shitted on all the while. this is bullshit ... i can't take it ... i'm trying ... but i'm the only one trying so it defeats the purpose. i need to go and be drama free in STL with Gemille. lord knows i need to get the HELL away from here. and all this gotdamn nonsense going on around here. *sigh* NO FOOL NO MORE AND THAT'S MY MOTTO IN '04 !!!!!